WHERE CAN I FIND THEM?

We volunteered to go to war
took games to the troops to make them smile
and were all the world like the girl next door
with
A Touch of Home for a little while.

To base camps, hospitals and LZs
we'd float, we'd fly, we'd drive
and hoped, somehow, to remember them
would keep each one alive.

War showed us no such kindness
so to honor them instead
we carved their names in granite walls
to be remembered, touched and read.

But those lists of names are useless
when it's
Skeeter, Dutch or Bro,
Four Eyes, Gramps,
or Greaser
whose real names we didn't know.

Where can I find them on The Wall?
To match a name with the face we knew,
To find each one who gave their all
like
Ski, Pops, Corky, Kid or Stu.

I played Cribbage with the Cowboy
and wrote letters home for Buzz
but I can't tell you who they were
I just know that each one
was.
They introduced themselves to us as
Stoney, Big Mike, Ace AND Bear.
That's how we see and hear them still...
just can't find them anywhere!

Some rearranged their given names
or shortened them instead
There's
Smitty, Fox and Bud
Yank, Mack, L.T.
and Red.

They talked about their favorite things;
Chip's girl, Sly's dawg, Buck's car.
If we had a roll call now
I couldn't tell you who they are.

They went by MOS and size
like
Gunny, Doc and Too Tall Paul.
I'd bridge that gap and ease my pain
if there were nicknames on The Wall.

It's easy to remember
Rusty, Gabby, Swede and Jer.
They're locked inside my memory
and not going anywhere.

But I can't reach out and touch the names
that I know are on The Wall.
You see, I never got to say Goodbye,
or, Welcome Home, that, most of all.

                                ©
2007 J. Holley Watts
A reunion for the Red Cross SRAO women took place in Albuquerque, NM in 2005. During
our visit we went to Angel Fire, our country's first national Vietnam Memorial. As we looked
through the books of remembrance my idea for this poem began to form. Months later I was
talking to Diane Kusrow Mercier (SRAO VN '67-'69) who had not attended the reunion. She
talked about her frustration knowing that some of the units she'd visited had been hit, and
not knowing the guys' "real names." She was not alone wondering what had happened to
them. The nurses and even GIs in the same unit shared that frustration. It seems I'd struck a
chord. The nicknames in this poem are real. Thanks to Diane, Dave, Edie, Joan and Jenny,
and always thanks to the guys.
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